PRINCE LOVE & HATE

argh..where the me i use to be..where where where..i just cant get to be happy..really!!!went grandmother house for praying today and everyone was asking me what wrong with me..why am i not so myself today..i don know what to say but just say i'll tired..but who know how i feel inside..that night out with nanny,nanny say she never seen me so sad before..she ask me this,am i this sad when i broke up with my ex and my ans was i don know..that the first time i went out with her with no much word and she know very well that i really feel sad inside..friend are saying that is it that bad as it only 2 week..it not how long it is..is how much you put in it..no one dare talk to me much other then work in office..today no one care me..i feel so lonely..so scare..i really need someone to care me right now..that day apple took a lighter and burn me and i don really feel the pain,she say i'll crazy..feeling came from the heart..so when the heart is dead,you wont had any feeling..the burn leave a make on my hand but i really don feel the pain at all..maybe it be cos the pain in my heart it much much more painful..could someone teach me how to be happy once again..i really forgot how to..