I got my bonus but i don feel happy at all..i don know why..jus got it ytd and i only leave with $1200 when i get $2200 jus ytd..1k gone..hai..i still plan to do my staff and save..but how to save now..i very tired..i work till so hard but at time i don even have money for food..you all may ask where did the 1k gone to..$200 for mummy,$200 for daddy,$200 for dinner tonight,$300 for rent car and only $100 i spend from this 1k only..saving gone and now bonus also gone..feel like don work at all..cos work also can no money to eat also..don work also same..so must well don work..i myself got my drean got my thing to do but all my money gone but i did nth for myself..i really very tired..how much tear i keep to myself no one know..i feel very stress whenever i get pay..cos i end up with nth..

It been a torture for me for not able to fall asleep almost everynight..I will fall asleep like at 8p.m or 9p.m and wake up 2-3 hour later and then never get back to sleep again till five or six in the morning..Don know why..

I feel so stress up..Feel so tired of everything..No metter how i try,No one will come to me and say "Hey,U Have Try..It ok..Try again"..No metter how good i do,No one will come to me and say "Good Job Edward"..But sometime one small mistake,Everyone will come to you.

It almost end of the year 2009..If someone is going to ask me what have i done this whole year,i don really have an ans..But if someone is going to ask me what was my goal for this year,I will say my goal for this year was just to have a saving of $3600 at the end of the year..Which is a $300 a month..Yes,I did save..I saved up to $2100-$2500 but it all gone..Hai..If someone is going to ask me what will be my wish for this coming new year,I dare not even think about it..

I always ask myself,Where is all the dream we use to have when we are small..As we grow up,All this dream just get further and further away from us till i don even have a dream now..

Kor,Happy 25th Birthday!!!!

I Miss My Kor Kor.=(

I don't want a lot for Christmas

There's just one thing I need

I don't care about the presents

Underneath the Christmas tree

I just want you for my own

More than you could ever know

Make my wish come true

All I want for Christmas is you.

I don't want a lot for Christmas

There is just one thing I need

I don't care about the presents

Underneath the Christmas tree

I don't need to hang my stocking

There upon the fireplace

Santa Claus won't make me happy

With a toy on Christmas day

I just want you for for my own

More than you could ever know

Make my wish come true

All I want for Christmas is you

You babyI won't ask for much this Christmas

I won't even wish for snow

I'm just gonna keep on waiting

Underneath the mistletoe

I won't make a list and send it

To the North Pole for Saint Nick

I won't even stay awake to

Hear those magic reindeer click

'Cause I just want you here tonight

Holding on to me so tight

What more can I do

Baby all I want for Christmas is you

YouAll the lights are shining

So brightly everywhere(So brightly everywhere)

And the sound of children's

Laughter fills the air(Laughter fills the air)

And everyone is singing(oh yeah)

I hear those sleigh bells ringing

Santa won't you bring me the one I really need

Won't you please bring my baby to me

Oh, I don't want a lot for Christmas

This is all I'm asking for(all i'm asking for)

I just want to see my baby

Standing right outside my door

Oh I just want him for my own

More than you could ever know

Make my wish come true

Baby all I want for Christmas is You

All I want for Christmas is you baby

All I want for Christmas is you baby.